I’d rather choke on greatness
Three projects require my at most attention. I have two papers that I have to sit for in the same week. I have meetings to attend and 3 courses that I have to finish ideally in the same month. I have recess probably the following week, a school project that I have never worked on and I need just enough money to keep me running —I have no idea where that is going to come from at the moment.
I feel sorry for myself when I sleep. “Oh, poor him”. Am I taking on more than I can chew? Most probably. But I’d rather choke on greatness than nibble on mediocrity. Or maybe I’m just consoling myself. One thing is for sure though, I have a clear vision of where I want to be and what I want to become. “The man you’re yet to become”. Keith said that to me —I like
It’s said that when you desperately want something, the universe conspires to make it happen
I love the universe, I love the cosmos, I love karma —she is a bitch but if she ain’t my bitch then we’ve got a problem.
It is going to be one hell of a week, but wait, that was my exact thought the previous week. I guess it’s become somewhat of a habit now. My new normal I should say. I’ve spent more time at the village these past 4 months than I have anywhere else.
Nothing comes easy, I know that now. Life is complex, fun, sad and a ton of shit. You attract that which you seek. Like Attracts Like. I try not to surround myself with pessimists, people who only think linearly. I crave freshness, diversity. I like a challenge. It makes me feel more alive —young. Dude, you’re 24. I know. It does sound like the most cliché of all things cliché but it is what it is. Forever young, I want to be forever young…
Even then, just like the rest of the human population, I have doubters. People who continuously put me down and make it seem, almost effortlessly as if their sole purpose in life is to be as arrogant about anything and everything.
I try not to let it affect me. I let it sink in and try to figure out why they do what they do (without losing my head). I mean it must come from somewhere. Insecurity perharps? Are they afraid of something?
No man is an island and I do respect those who try to mentor this stubborn head. I have set goals for my self. By 25…, By 30…, ADELE 25, anyone? —When we were young. That just popped up.
But I won’t hold my breath
I’ll just fill up and deliver
-Kimbra, Top Of The World
In the end, after all is said and done. I want to look back 5 years later and say to myself…
Mercilessly scrapped from I, TONYA, the movie.