The songs in my pocket
I am not the type of person who is so defensive about the kind of music I listen to. If you met me and just asked me out of the blue, what I am listening to, I won’t shy away, I’ll tell you and if you’re lucky enough, I’ll give you the entire album and make you listen to it —yes, all of it.
I love music, —I mean, who doesn’t— it’s the soundtrack to life.
A few days ago, I re-downloaded the Moana OST (Original Soundtrack) and I wanted to re-live some events —rekindle some memories— from the past —blast from the past.
This is a “thing” I love doing where I watch a movie or series and even though it’s not moving or good enough, but has some really striking OST, I’ll immediately download it and kind of replay the events through the tracks.
I did this —still do— with almost all the movies and shows I’ve watched since I learned how to search the internet and torrent.
- Paper Towns —this one is really good, damn.
- Rocky 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 and 6
- Black Panther
- 50 shades trilogy
- One Tree Hill —damn, Bethany Joy is just awesome
- City Hunter
- Secret Garden
- Jewel In The Palace (Dae Jang Geum) —those days at midnight everyday on ITV, memories…
I love the Moana OST because I watched the movie at a time when I was really feeling awesome about myself and then there’s one —two actually— track that had some striking lyric that I could remember clearly but wanted to listen to nonetheless;
—I like replacing Moana with Majaliwa, daughter with son, gives it a lil bit of Xtra.
Sometimes the world seems against you
The journey may leave a scar
But scars can heal and reveal just
Where you are
The people you love will change you
The things you have learned will guide you
And nothing on earth can silence
The quiet voice still inside you
And when that voice starts to whisper
Majaliwa, you’ve come so far
Do you know who you are?
-I Am Moana (Songs Of The Ancestors)
Each time I listen, I’m like, “Wait a minute, who am I?”
I can’t really tell right now. I mean, am I a rebel —rebel heart, Madonna— am I still socially awkward, do I really know what I want in my life, have I been playing myself all this time?
It’s been 6 months since I joined the village and still, I have nothing to show for it, yet. Just a bunch of skills that I’m probably not utilizing and lots of knowledge unapplied.
Maybe I’m shooting myself in the foot, judging myself too early. This complacency is too much. It has been a tough ride though, emotionally, for me. But, I believe I know just where I am right now.
I watched the Rich Dad, Poor Dad DVD and Robert Kiyosaki illustrated the cashflow quadrant which if you didn’t know, looks like this;
Where E is for the Employee, S for the Self-Employed —who always claim they love what they do, sounds like me— B is for Businesses —the huge corporations that work with teams and employ those many employees— and I is for the Investors —those that ask for what their ROI (Return Of Investment) is
“Huh, I am definitely in the S category,” I said to myself, although I am kind of in the B —but not really— and also a bit of an I —I mean, I do invest in myself plus there’s this project I’m kinda funding
Turns out I’m still learning, I’m still getting there
There are two lines that say the people you love will change you, the things you have learned will guide you which to me is like reading from the Bible. I was like, “Yeah, spot on with that one”. The people I love have really changed me —for the good— and I do find myself learning intentionally/uninentionally things that have and are guiding me. Like how Kato introduced me to the bookoflife and theschooloflife which helped with developing my emotional intelligence.
There’s a lot of power in those lyrics, I mean they got me thinking about all this. And each time I listen to this line that says nothing on earth can silence the quiet voice still inside you my mind shoots back to yet another track that —in which I find most solace— goes like this —mind the BOLD;
The village may think I’m crazy
Or say that I drift too far
But once you know what you like, well
There you areYou are your father’s son
Stubbornness and pride
Mind what he says but remember
You may hear a voice inside
And if the voice starts to whisper
To follow the farthest star
Majaliwa, that voice inside is
Who you are
-Where You Are, Moana
The village may think I’m crazy, haha. I find this funny because I work from the Innovation village and almost everyone calls it the village. So maybe the village —or any village for that matter— thinks I’m crazy but I know what I like, so here I am.
I am my father’s son, very stubborn and proud. I don’t like asking for help, which made sense when Robert Kiyosaki was talking about it. “I want to do it on my own, no one will do it better” is a very popular saying with the S category. But I do want to break out of that, I want bigger, I want better —I crave freedom.
There’s a price for all my wants though, I know that but it is still kinda hard to actually accept it. To accept that I have to be willing to actually outwork everyone. Work hard, work smart, accept that I have to break myself in half and be patient. It might take 2, 5, 10 years to get to where I really see myself and want to be and that is okay —just embrace the grind.
All I have to remember is something GaryVee said;
How you make your money is more important than how much you make…
These are all just thoughts and words —powered by lyrics— it is what I end up doing that will truly decide my fate. I can’t be this smart but yet so dumb. I know knowledge with application is power/wisdom.
I guess time will tell.
PS: there is a line in Where You Are that says “the village believes in us”, so I am definitely on the right track —see what I did there?